the reason i want to blog in this 'wee' hours early in d morning is because my heart is not at peace. i have been feeling rather restless and afraid? afraid of losing the people i love so much. or maybe i am just pms-ing. we shall see about that. Mum and boifey have been scaring me lately. like last night, boifey went Johor with his brother. i totally forgot about that. and i only remembered after i got a shocked when his mum pick up his hp. ok he forgot his hp. the point is, i got worried because i last texted him at around 3plus in d afternoon and i heard no news after that. i decided to slept at one. ma mind was indeed disturbed. i had to think of the worse from 0430 till 0600. at 0604, my hp vibrated, its his picture, its his name! my goodness i was daym relieved caan?! he explained. and im a happy girl. =)

about mum. dat scares me till now. she's been.. i do not noe how to explain this but she's been feeling like tired? restless? perspire like what? nauseous? headache? all like a sudden? for a moment she will vigorously do what she does. the next? there she goes asking me to take medicine evrywhere around the house. by that time i gabra redi caan? at again i think. i cant possibly live with only my brother. not now at least. i can't. ='(

but then again. shudup laa myra!

anyway, im kinda stuck. should i go FOC? ans this for me someone. and i have been wanting to do something! but it always happen that m stuck with lappy. but its ok. i've been progressing. lol. i think i can talk more. but enough for now aite.

i AM in NEED of Putera Ali.
is today the 4th?
ohh~
10 more days. -to skul perhaps?-
shalalala..