i feel heaty at the moment. heaty in the inside. why?? PMS is the answer. Let me be frank. Patience has always been my principle. Love has always been the answer to my questions. However, when PMS strike, the patience and smiles that i always have will turn myself into an egocentric self. i will "re-dig" or shall i say ungkit balik evrything n me myself will turn little little things into a huge big chaotic blow. that i dislike. I will not think think rationally and little things sparks my anger. Its been a long time eversince i had a real blow-up. that's good,in a way but when i really blow up, its gonna be real bad.which i hope wun happen anytime soon,not at least for the next few months. Tears are my loyal companion whenever i blow up,a small blow up that is. Well at least after those tears, i can think better and speak with a clear mind. that i like. =)

i think blog is good. i can pen down those thoughts. not fully tho. still, a bit burden gone. the best medicine? Putera Ali. I can talk to him about anything under the sun. and yes i need to talk soon. he needs to know what i feel. i cant possibly bottle up evrything can i? it may hurt abit dear. ask me once you read this. =(
i love you.