Holidays are killing me! such silent killer..ok peeps, this shall be my last post for at least a week??i'll be off to Senior Specialist Course in less than 6 hours. and i have yet to pack up. -_____-"

i think something is wrong with me. and i do not know what. i am just simply in need of him and no words can explain how much i've been missing him. god knows what i have been doing this few nights. if only anyone, anyone could understand what i would like to convey. wow. if only he knew. ok shudup i am trying,i repeat. i am trying to balance my emotional state ok. no no i am not angry. =) another emotional self-regulation perhaps? haha. the angel is doing her very best to calm, console, coax, and understand what's going on last few days and of course. i do understand. but after that. the bloody devil popped out and trying to "negotiate" and make a twist in the reality. dang~ ok if u dun understand nvm. it's just for me i guess. what's a blog for right? i guess being strong aint easy. totally not. but i have to practice. from now. god knows why. and i am not tired. will never be cause i'll hold on and will always be here waiting. i love you. i really do. now and forever. amin.

ok daa~ xD
saye da ok.
wanna pack now.
you take care lovables.

putera ali, i love you
i am always missing you sweetheart =)